Doubts and Uncertainties

The past week has been a strange week. After helping at the Self-Transcendence 24 Hour Track Race last weekend, I was feeling absolutely drained. I should have taken Monday off from work to recover, but I didn't realise I would feel that bad. I started having doubts by midweek as to whether this is the correct path for me and is it actually really making a difference. I was not able to meditate Monday or Tuesday, so this probably didn't help. Towards the end of the week, I was able to start meditating again, both mornings and evenings, and this has renewed my commitment to my journey.

Although I am starting to sleep better at night, I am still feeling very tired in the day time and I am lacking energy. This has been a problem when it comes to meditating, especially at night, as I feel myself falling asleep half way through it. Weekends are the worse for me. All I wanted to do on Saturday was just go back to bed and sleep. Even though I went out with my wife and son in the morning, I still felt very tired and could not enjoy it that much.

I am not going to the doctors again about this, all they seem to do is give you drugs and hope that it will work. I am now going to look at my diet and start eating 'superfoods' and hope that my energy reserves will increase. My main goal is to get back to my running as I think this is what I am missing.

Sunday was a better day. First I went to coffee and play at a St. Andrew's Church in Cardiff, where me and Bernadette can have a coffee and Rob has a selection of toys and games he could play with. He met up with 2 of his friends (twins) and they had a great time. We then went to a local little Café, the Wellfield Diner, for some food, and then on to Roath Park so Robert could have some fun in the playground. We also walked around the park amongst the trees collecting leaves for Robert to take to nursery with him on Monday.

After a wet and cloudy Saturday, the afternoon on Sunday turned out very nice, and spending a few hours in the park was very calming and relaxing. This time of year is wonderful, the trees are changing colour so what better way to spend it then in the park with the two most important people in my life.

After a bad start to the week, it finished on a high, and I feel renewed for what might lay ahead. My journey continues...

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