I'm back. Doctors, acupuncture, becoming a disciple and house buying

I have been a bit lapse with updating my blog lately, by now I'm going to try and update at least once a week,  more often if something of significance happens in my life. But just to bring you up to since my last blog Thoughts in December, my life has taken a new step and changed for the better.

It was a long hard winter, problems with the car, the weather was very cold with lots of snow and short, dull days that did not help with my mental well-being and achieving happiness. Also I have also been having trouble with people close to me, accepting who I am and not just simply trying to cause arguments and misunderstanding my intentions. Also, we couldn't get to North Wales to spend Christmas with my parent-in-laws as the car was not working (dead battery) due the cold weather and the weather was to bad to travel anyway. This upset my wife as we were both  really looking forward to spending Christmas with here parents.

I've been continuing with my meditation and that did help me get through January and I was beginning to feel happier with myself, although I was still feeling very tired at the weekends and not getting much sleep at night. Been back and forth to the doctors about this and all she has been doing is prescribing me one anti-depressant tablet after another, she thinks that I must be depressed, although I don't think I am. Having taken them for almost 3 months with no results, I have stopped as I have started on a course of acupuncture with the Chinese herbalist in Penarth. I shall write more about this in a future blog, but needless to say I think it is working as my sleep, although not that long, is improving and I'm feeling better in the morning. I'm going to the docs on Wednesday and I'm going to tell her once and for all that I no longer need to take any of her drugs.

One other change in my life, and one I will never regret, is that on the 7 February, 2011 I officially become a disciple of Sri Chinmoy. This involves meditating at the Sri Chinmoy centre in Cardiff every Wednesday and Sunday evening at 7.30pm as well as my daily meditations at home. I have also been to a couple of Joy days at the centre in London, more about these in a future blog. But what an wonderful experience I'm having and all the other disciples are such an amazing, happy group of people. As a result of this I have never been happier or more contented with my life. I think this is what I have been looking for.

I've also been on holiday with my wife, son and parents to Butlins in Bognor Regis which was very fun for all of us and, most importantly, brought me closer to my mum and dad. After the holiday they now fully accept I'm a vegetarian and that I don't drink alcohol. Also, more recently, they have begun accepting the fact that I meditate, but I've still yet to tell them I'm now a disciple. I'm might write more about this in yet another post.

I'm also in the process of finally buying a house after renting all these years. Mortgage all sorted just got to wait for contracts to be exchanged. So this is an exciting and busy time for me, but I'm not feeling stressed about it all, thanks to my meditation. I'll blog more about this as it happens.

All in all, since February, this year has been a very good year and I have never felt  happier or more contented with my life. There are some major changes going on in my life, but it is all very exciting and I'm  positive about everything that is happening.

Well that's it for the moment. Peace, love and happiness to you (the reader) and everyone.

More ups and downs, but making progress

This week has been an interesting week. My meditation with Charana and Prabhavati went very well on Monday and my understanding of the teachings and ways of Sri Chinmoy has took a good step forward. I'm getting close to finishing Sri Chinmoy's Beyond Within and it has been a very amazing and informative read. It is starting to help me really appreciate and enjoy the world I live in.

Tuesday I went to the doctors to let them know that I will not be taking any more drugs (poisons) to help with my relaxation and sleeplessness. I feel that my mediations and the spiritual path I'm following is doing me far more good then anything the doctor can prescribe, it just takes a bit longer to achieve the end results.

Friday was an amazing day, spiritually. I woke up to a lovely autumn morning. The sun was shining and the sky was an wonderful blue colour with not a cloud in view. My cycle ride from Llantwit Major train station to my office was absolutely amazing and inspiring. The colours in the hedgerows along the country lanes and the blue of the sky was very vivid, I've never experienced anything like this before. I slowed my speed to absorb as much of it as I could. I even stopped where there was a good view over the countryside to take it all in (meditate on it). I stayed there for about 5 minutes and it made me feel very good, it's a wonderful way to start the day. I recommend that more people should do this as it is a good way to relax and make you appreciate everything that's here. It's days like this that make me feel very happy, relaxed and good to be alive. I will also use this feeling to help me in my meditations and also cope with stresses and worries in my day to day life.

Saturday was not so good, woke up in the morning with a very bad stomach, a headache and was very sick, I also had bad diarrhoea later on in the day. My stomach is still feeling delicate as I write this. It was either the Chinese take away I had the night before or it's a stomach bug I picked up. Just completed 30 minutes mediation though and that has made me feel better, spiritually if not physically. Still managed to have a wonderful day with my son, as his smiles and laughter seems to be a cure for all known illnesses, well it takes my mind of them anyway. We had a lovely work across to the new Cardiff International White Water centre, as both me and Rob love watching the Kayaks and rafts going along the course, followed by visit to the coffee shop for a herbal tea for me, a milkshake for my son and some toast and jam for us to share. Rob also likes having a giant cookie with Smarties as a treat. Hopefully tomorrow, if I feel better, I will be taking Rob for his first swim in Cardiff's international pool.

All said and done, despite my dodgy tummy, I am feeling very good, happy and relaxed. Let my journey continue...

Next: Robert and Cardiff International Pool